It's been such a long long, super long that i've never visited my blog...i don't even bother to post anything even about my birthday...i don't know why...no mood to write sth...more or less, i feel that i come here only when i feel bad...when i wanna say sth out, sth that should not be talked with the other people...then i also feel not so good since there are actually some people who read my blog and they gonna wonder why this is such a terrible blog...like today, it's gonna be another boring scene...
i feel so down today, actually these days...so bored...and the worse thing is that, even with this kind of feeling, i still need to smile out...
i have always hated this fake smile so much but i can't avoid it at all...
i just wanna have a peaceful life...but people tend not to let me go that easily...
my human skill is so suck...i should have learned how to judge people more and i must learn it from now on...people are not always that good...be too early to trust people, be too eager to share with those people, be too pure or in other word too stupid, it happens to turn out to be the cuff for myself...making my life so messy...
kk, learn learn learn...don't let the history repeats...ouk ouk fighting fighting ^^
11 comments:
u're so unfair.. u only visit ur blog when u r down.. she's even worse than u, see?? she has to take all ur sorrow and everything...
Anyway, what's wrong again? u've been quiet lately... u've never even dropped to say hi. Well, don't know how to comment on ur post since I don't know anything but yeah... u should learn from ur mistakes.. dun repeat them.. :) Cheer, sis!!
ouk, not everyone is good. and don't blame ur judgement, its not worth believe me. just go ahead. its not the end of the world without that person. what i feel now, well, i think i've changed. i no longer care about those. those who do me good, I will do back. and yeah, i love lonely life sometimes. don't do like me of course. but believe me, she'll laugh at u while u're sad. just let it go. its not a big deal. get things u want to do. i guess im more mature now. so believe me hehe! and look back to those who care for u.
yeah, m unfair to my blog, but she should be happy somehow...cos she's the one i run to...
well, it's still the same old story, well i guess you never know this one...but it's worse and worse...and it's make my life so messy...damn...
dear, hm, the story is now like that...of course, now i only care of those who care of me...it's my principle now...so that i don't need to feel hurt...but here is another different story...i don't care of those people at all, but they just don't let me go...they wanna look good by making other people look bad...they are friendly with us while at the same time, attack us from the back...i just realize it you know...it's bad, cos people who are friendly with me, people whom i usually think that they are my friends, are actually my secret enemy...so bad huh? well, nth can be changes since she's gone so far...what i can get is experience...gotta learn...
well, everyone is ur enemy! remember this ouk! this is what i felt. do u think that people do good to u instead of to themselves? absolutely not. u may say im negative towards it, but its true. People are up for their own good, benefit and stuff. Just some good people have this: who do good will be returned good. its complicated. believe me, it's not worth. just be urself, do anything u want and be normal. this is the best solution to attack back tho!
Duh!! "everyone is ur enemy"??? What a bad idea!! U make the world goes darker than the storming day (m talking about ibk). Ok! I can say that I don't really understand u since this is not what I used to experience. I don't know how to teach u to see people as I myself r not the expert. However, things go step by step. U get to know someone then try to see what kind of person they are. U don't go around sharing ur feeling or whatever personal with everyone. It's a matter of time and how much u want to get to know someone. The word "betray" sounds very big. I don't think people will betray u if u don't have anything for them to betray. Now it's not a matter of how they react toward u, but, instead, how u react toward them. Learn from ur mistakes and well.. even if u somehow let them do sth bad to u, just make sure it won't happen the 2nd time. M not trying to console u te, but I want to share u how I feel as a 3rd person. U can always chat with me if u want some more idea from me.. cheer up sis!!
oh! by the way, not everyone is up for their own good. Ok! It's true that everyone cares about themselves and their own benefits but not everyone focuses on that and harm other people. The best way to be happy and live well is not to be cautious every single minute. Instead, u should open ur heart, think of the world in a more positive view, but at the same time, watch what u r doing and everyone surround u. It's good to be who u really are but only to some extent. Watch what u r doing and know exactly what u r doing; then later on, even if u make mistakes, u will make them with good reasons. Oh! Last word! Real life is always different from the movie life. Remember that! :)
Ouk,we can't help you much, but yourself. We are not in your situation, so we don't know how tough you are in. But we support you to fight for it, Be yourself na.
ya... i think u better name ur blog a "dead journal".... or sth on which u would list down names of persons u would kill if u could... ha ha...:-D... just kidding!!
don't think too much... life is just like that... sadness is always there. but happiness is always there, too. I believe that u could find a good solution for urself. BE YOURSELF!!!
why become so serious like this? *.*
Ouk...better go out. See New Moon, 2012, Ninja Assasin, and etc...haha. It's really pain, i know, that friend fight at the back..haha. Bt don worry coz at least u know them, worse case is you blind folded for years...lolz. Anyways, m in KL doing my intern...lolz.
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