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It's been such a long long, super long that i've never visited my blog...i don't even bother to post anything even about my birthday...i don't know why...no mood to write sth...more or less, i feel that i come here only when i feel bad...when i wanna say sth out, sth that should not be talked with the other people...then i also feel not so good since there are actually some people who read my blog and they gonna wonder why this is such a terrible blog...like today, it's gonna be another boring scene...

i feel so down today, actually these days...so bored...and the worse thing is that, even with this kind of feeling, i still need to smile out...
i have always hated this fake smile so much but i can't avoid it at all...
i just wanna have a peaceful life...but people tend not to let me go that easily...

my human skill is so suck...i should have learned how to judge people more and i must learn it from now on...people are not always that good...be too early to trust people, be too eager to share with those people, be too pure or in other word too stupid, it happens to turn out to be the cuff for myself...making my life so messy...
kk, learn learn learn...don't let the history repeats...ouk ouk fighting fighting ^^